9/3/11

Life's Decisions

Noel has officially started pre-school August 22, 2011, she started earlier this year too but that was only a month and was kinda a trial period. She seems to really love school and the staff there really seems to like her too.

Over the summer Noel has come a little further in her journey she is scooting a lot and very fast too she gets where she wants to be ASAP....... she will also now hold your hands and walk with you but not without assistance. She also is learning a few more words but its a lot of repeating.

We are still having the severe eating issues and I took her to Kennedy Krieger in Baltimore Maryland and they want to do an intensive feeding program with her for 2 months but financially our family can not afford for me to take off that amount of time. Ive had time saved up here and there but someone has always gotten sick or doctors appointments here and there and it just comes and goes.

So now its also Hurricane Season and thats my line of work ( disaster recovery ) so like a doctor needs sick patients and peanut butter needs jelly. We work - because of disasters.  So Ive had to make a huge decision along with my husband to place Noel in the dorm at her school during the week. This breaks my heart = literally to pieces.

She is not even four years old yet, not only am I seperating her from her family, her twin sister I feel like im abandoning her. Will she remember me or will she think that the houseparents are her parents. Will she hate me for this later on? Will she even remember it? I know they treat the kids great there, no doubt in my mind she will do just fine there; she is also non verbal as in speaking and answering questions. You say " Hi Noel " she says " Hi Noel " I assume thats from the autisum. Parents everywhere have to make choices about there children everyday, I know Im not the only one, its been a rough go since day 1 though and sometimes I just wish it would get easier: its one hard decision after another.

and so life goes on.....lifes decisions